God's timing is, hmm, not quite insync with mine.

Oh my gosh… okay, so we’ve all wanted something at some point in our lives, right…. Of course we have. Well, then there’s the moments, when you want something, you go after it with all you’ve got and….well, God laughs in your face and basically says ‘no, that’s not really what I have in mind’ [rolls eyes]. So I blogged about the whole coming to Indy and being shot down about the photography thing, but knowing that God had something bigger planned out for me.

Well, then I got the job at the chiropractic office, which at the time I thought was right on and something I could definitely do for a year to pay the bills. And the very first time I met with my current boss, she told me about a photographer who was a patient of theirs, and if I wanted to, she would drop off my portfolio and my resume and put in a good word for me. Well, I obviously took her up on it, and now, 4 weeks later she has finally dropped off my portfolio and my resume…… And they called me on Tuesday to see if I could come in for an interview!…..yeah….I’m pretty sure my heart stopped beating when I heard the message.

Anyway, we met this morning….and I want this job so bad…. So bad. I would have access to the studio [which is huge!], but it seems like my job would be mostly in multi-tasking and sending out orders, getting photographs ready for clients, and digitally editing images. I want it so so bad…and they could tell [smile]. They [there were three of them interviewing me-sorta], at one point, asked if I had digital images from the weddings I shot, and I said I did….and that I actually thought about bringing my laptop in, just in case…but decided against it because I didn’t want to seem to eager. Which the one man then said “But you are eager, right. I can see it. You want this job so bad!”….and I was like “Yeah, you’re right…I’m not going to lie. I do”…and then he asked me to tell them how much I wanted this job… and I should have been able to come up with a better answer for them, because there are so many reasons….so so many reasons. But I said that words can’t even begin to describe how much I would love to work for them.

Which brought us around to what days I could work, which I then sighed and said that that was the only sticky part of it. Because I have a prior commitment to the Chiropractic office, and when hiring me my boss explained that she was a bit hesitant because she didn’t want me to get up and quit after working there for three months, because I had a better job offer. And so I assured her that if they hired me it would be the end of my job searching. I said I couldn’t promise anything after a year. And I was for real. I haven’t done any more searching. But now, this studio has contacted me and [sigh]…yeah, what now?! So anyway, I explained to my interviewers the situation, and the main photographer basically said that it would be taken care of, and that they’d be able to smooth things over with the Chiropractic office [and I wonder what I looked like, ‘cause I could have cried…seriously].

So now I’m waiting, and praying that I’m what they want and that they’ll hire me and that I’ll really be able to be a part of something. I was thinking about it, and….if I was hired, I could stay in Indy for longer than the year. Yeah, with a job that I love…. That provided me with the kind of opportunities that I think this studio will….absolutely. There are a lot of things that are important to me, but this, this would be so incredible.

Anyway, your prayers are welcomed. And I thank you for them. Dear God, please let me get this job…please, please, please……[fingers crossed]. I know that things are in your control, and so I trust that you will put me where I’m meant to be.

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